Every time I think of the phrase new chapter it doesn’t seem to fit how this one has transitioned yet. I think a better way to think about it is like a new book or even in terms of tv the new episode where they recap what has happened already briefly.

Maybe it is just us but there is something comforting and bittersweet on wrapping up a new chapter. I found that last week we spent a lot of time reminiscing. Even at our dinner with our families they spent a good amount of time reminiscing on their childhoods. Depending on how you look at it, I think it’s nice to close out a chapter or start a new one looking back.

There was a special moment right before we did our final walk through inspection for our apartment where it was just D and I and he brought up how excited I was about the place when I first saw it. He joked that I had no poker face when we walked in and we laughed remembering how I asked him to fill the application out in the car and run it back up to our landlord. All this with more places to look at.

This last apartment was the closest to what I envisioned my future house to be. I realize it is just an apartment, but in our chapter it has been our home for the last year. A home that grew with our family when BB was born. A home that we built our family in.

I have learned through now 4 moves that I am a slight hoarder. My mom says I come by it naturally since my dad is also. This move has forced me out of my hoarding ways and gave me the oportunity to skimp down my wardrobe and kitchen. However, I was finding that I was having a hard time leaving the apartment. We ended up selling or giving away all of our big unneeded items and still found we had way to much stuff.

Right before the walk through D and I took a moment to just remember all the good times we had in our place. I am so lucky he gets me, and indulges me when I need it most. We were given the green light to move out and our landlord us going to return when the carpets dry from being cleaned to inspect the rest of the place. Keep your fingers crossed for us guys. I personally think we should be paid for the carpets because we left them 20 times cleaner than we got them.

It was again bittersweet to hand over the keys and see our place empty but it felt like we closed out that chapter and now, once we find a place to live we will start our new chapter. I guess we are currently in the awkward chapter between the two real ones right now.